Blargh

That's all i can really say. I mean today wasn't necessarily a bad one but it wasn't an amazingly good one either. It kinda just was. Um i can say that i am almost done with my painting for art, i am SUPER excited about that. Next weekend will be second Saturday and hopefully mine will be there. My art teacher hasn't completely decided on whose painting will be featured. Although she really seems to enjoy my painting. Considering that mine may not be there i will describe it to you. It has a blue purple background to signify the night sky, of to the right hand side is a woman holding the world in her hands wearing a dress that fades from blue and turns into the ocean. Behind her is a ribbon of sparkling stars and several butterflies flying thru the air. And finally a large moon in the top left hand corner with a serene face. That is what my painting looks like. Everyone who has seen it loves it, so it must be good right? Of course being the artist i guess i can never be happy with my work. After i finish a long project like this one even if it looks amazing i still don't see the beauty in it. I see the mistakes, the missed ideas, how long it took, the trouble behind it,the odd color patterns. The list goes on and on and on. Ugh one would think I'd get tired of all of it. But i do know that the time spent working on a project is sometimes the best time i have ever spent. I love the process sometimes. It helps to unwind. All my problems and my worries have gone and all that's left is my zone. My happy place, my nirvana {side note: Awesome band BTW} and in my happy nirvana, my problems don't mean jack shit. Trying to date, making sure i can write well enough in my AP Eng class so that i don't sound like a complete buffoon, dealing with peoples shit, sometimes trying to handle my family. None of it matters, its the same with reading my books or when a rabid plot bunny bites me; writing my stories. History does that for me too, ancient civilization history not US history that crap bores me. Its like that with my tea too. No one effs with ma tea! lol i am a huge fanatic, its just so yummy and healthy. =) it makes me happy when i have really good tea. God save the person who fucks with my tea. Anyway that is a bit of me out there. lol