Good day.

So today was a good day. Nothing super interesting happened today. Oh! I just remembered my art may be showed during 2nd Saturday in march! Thank you art teacher! Other than that nothing happened today. It was just a really long day today. Ummm oh a close friend is about to go on a date with total slore despite warnings from practically the entire student body. May god have mercy on his.........you know what i mean. Well lets see what to talk about, hmmm. SO my life is pretty just normal. I have head in the clouds too often probably. I mean i imagine different scenarios that would never ever happen in real life. I mean like I remember walking to school in the morning and playing out a situation in which I played a character from a story i read. All of this is going on in my head ok. Thankfully i don't say random things out loud to make me look crazy. I suppose in this manner i am like JD from Scrubs. Which is one of my favorite shows btw. My favorite characters are JD, Dr.Cox, Janitor, Elliot, Carla and Turk. Great show. So yeah. Umm I love nachos...... i don't know i'm just trying to come up with things to say. well yehhh so thats my day.

Life and Moments

Lets seriously consider moments that have made my day. It wasn't a bad day, in fact it was a really good day. But its the moments that made it great for me. Like the moments in which i sat with my best friend and did cheesy Russian accents and saying "In Soviet Russia" at the beginning of each sentence and creating really weird phrases from it. Or sitting together with another group of close friends and laughing at the absurdity of life and its inner workings. OH! And going to my AP English lit class expecting a very deep discussion on Post-Modernism and Existentialism and furthermore depressing the day and finding instead a half hour of playing Heads Up! 7 Up! and somehow being shown an example of Post-Modernism any way. There is also the moment today of looking across the table and seeing a guy i care for and just for maybe a few seconds locking onto his deep ocean blue eyes and feel perfectly alright. Moments. Life's made up of them, maybe that's all it really is a series of moments one flowing into the next in a continuous current moving right along the stream of time and space. Maybe just maybe if we all stop for a moment and experience a laugh, a smile, a kiss that it will make your day better. Maybe i have no idea what i am talking about and am just making up things to try and explain away a good day. Maybe by rationalizing it, it disappears and just becomes a day. Or maybe a day has no feeling good or bad until we label it and by labeling it, it changes and turns into lost moment. A waste of time. Like the tossing of a coin repeatedly to see when it will tails. Maybe I'm over thinking this whole thing. But one thing i am sure of is lifes continuity and frailty.

Guys are weird and stupid sometimes.

So guys are stupid especially when it comes to girls. Usually its nothing to talk about but this time its different.I was hanging out with one of my best friends when i remembered something she mentioned to me about this guy i like. This guy and i are pretty close, we've been good friends for a couple of years and i developed a crush, you know how these things go, anyway they were talking and since I read like an open book apparently he already knew about the crush. So he says to her "There are a lot of girls that like me," this is actually true, i'm not saying he's a hunk or anything but he's one of those types of guys that have a type of charisma that attracts girls to him like flies to honey anyways back to the story, he then says,"But i don't really like anyone. I mean there are a few people i like but i don't like them in that way. I mean there's this one girl and we're close but i just like her as a friend but i don't want to lead her on because i have a natural tendency to flirt. What should i do?" My friend the wonderful person that she is says," Well maybe you should talk to her and tell her how you feel." Now i'm not disagreeing with that advice i would've told him the same thing. Apparently if you haven't guessed he was talking about me. The whole "she's just a friend to me thing" isn't new to me. It happens all the time. Sucks, huh? But moving on, she tells me this and i'm like ok great another one bites the dust. Though i was fine with it because i figured something like this was gonna happen. so i decide ok i'm just gonna keep doing my own thing and not even acknowledge the heartbreak. So for 2 weeks since that convo i have been waiting for him to come up to me and start saying something about it...........Instead all i get is a bit of the cold shoulder. I guess thats his way of not giving me mixed signals but i don't know. It's more trouble that it should be. I mean why doesn't he get it over and done with right? Gosh i mean its a bit of a jerk move. Even though i do understand the intent of it but couldn't he find a better way????!

Epic Day of Epicness lol

Okay so big day today. Obama named president today, *makes happy noise*. Um nothing to be immensely down about, which is a very good thing. I know on here i seem like a super depressed ninny, but I'm not normally. Normally I'm the one everyone goes to if they need advice or something. I am a walking, talking Dear Abby column. But that's to be expected it's in my nature. So on more social news important in my life that i feel the need to talk about: Today I was supposed to actually deliver an envelope to one of my closest friends. Now normally this kind of thing wouldn't be of note, but this was different in the fact that its contents contains remnants of a time in his life when he was very much in love with an ex girl of his. In it contained his favorite pictures with the girl and 3 paper letter he wrote to her-but it was written back to front so in actuality it was like 6 pages long. There were some extenuating circumstances with the girl and to make a long story short another girl entered the picture and everything was torn apart he didn't get back with either and he was left brokenhearted. Of course me being the great friend i am stuck with him through it all. Even though the entire time i, deep in the recesses my heart i pined away for him (no the other girl was not me). But then time passed and he found a few girls to "play" with. I was one of though i did not "play" that much with him, just a few discreet kisses that would be perfectly acceptable in europe as a friend thing so thats my story and im sticking to it. After a while he found his new girlfriend a lovely florida girl. I use the term loosely. I suppose thats the best friend /unrequited crush in me coming out.

Well now that they are together he is happy and thats what counts right? yes, yes it does. Now i just need to make that delivery and cross my fingers that it doesn't bring up any painful memories.

How did I go from Obama to past drama is beyond me. Lol i suppose its what some people would call the ramblings of a teenager or something i don't know. I guess considering i started talking about the significance of the day that i should pick the thread up and run with it again, huh? Anyways big day today. We, as a country, have moved past some although not all idiot ideals and have embraced this wonderful man as our new commander in chief. His words moved me when i heard him speak today after being sworn in. As he looked out across the National Mall at the massive sea of people waiting to hear him, as i watched on Tv today i could only think one thing: Everything will get better. I have a great hope that it will. It all became a bit surreal and did not finally hit me until about 4:30 in the afternoon today. I was watching the news and just listening abbout the Veterens Ball that they were throwing and i feel silly saying this but all i could was that 'Please let this man take care of our military' Because i flashed to my best friends who are now inlisted in the United States Marine Corps. I swear i almost cried.

i feel a little blue........

Ok so title pretty much says it all. I'm a little sad today, i mean my day was great up til like 12:30pm. All of a sudden I'm surrounded by 20 billion couples and i am a pair of one. It was a slap to the face revealing how much i am like Carrie from sex in the city........w/o the sex and a Mr.Big and w/o the big city. I was the sad version still handing out advice, pretty good advice if i do say so, but no enjoyment and no one to really tell my feelings to w/o them simplifying them and then begin to tell me about all their problems and no happy news. After a rousing discussion in English about completely losing faith in any and all systems of beliefs and questioning the very nature of our existence upon this earth i walked home and proceeded to nearly cry. I am now out an about in the most wonderful tea shop in downtown midtown here in lovely Sacramento trying to cheer myself up. And so i felt the need to tell you all about it, well whoever reads these about it.

The beginings of a Social Butterfly Rant.

Ok soooo definately not a first time blogger but first time on here so bear with me. Well we all know how high school goes, there are teachers we like, teachers we don't like, friends we hang out with because you genuinely like hanging out with them, there are the people you tolerate in class because you know that one day they are going to snap and become the crazy serial killer you know is lurking somewhere beneath, there are the superficial catty girls/guys (you all know they exist) and there are the vain, egotistical, dim-witted jocks who try to get away with everything, oh! let us not forget the ap students, those wonderful students who will be doctors or lawyers, definately politicians and shrinks. But they are definately people one can have an intelligent convo with and not feel like you're talking to a 3yr old. There are the drama dorks(who i love with all m'heart) Also those wonderful punk kids and the occasional goth, the quaker, the baker and the candlestick maker........Just kidding lol. There is the anime club/group of fanatics with whom i do feel for and count myself as one of them (although on my own time) that sadly follow the stereotype of that of almost completely low level on the status chain. And although i hate to admit there is one, i can't help but somewhat stick to the unspoken natural order that is the wild kingdom of high school. We (as teenagers) know that high school on a daily basis is not as depicted in classic Grease nor is the annoyingly over the top ridiculous sing a long that is the sensation High School Musical . It is a building with different types of people that so happen to inhabit inside it for aprox. 4 yrs. I could go on with a list of clicks and stereotypes for a month and probably still have at least another hundred more that seemingly pop up out of nowhere, but i won't. I know, I know all of you are saying "THANK THE HEAVENS! She's done." I guess the whole rationale for pointing out this well known accepted fact among most of "young adults" even those who still act like 2 and 5 year old respectfully, is to talk about the feelings ssof the "social butterfly". The girl or guy who knows and gets along generally well with everyone in a vast majority of the enitire school population. Including all those listed above and a couple more like the cholos and the gangsters and the emo kids and the stupid potheads who--at one point or another-- where good clearheaded friends from elementry school. The list goes on and on and on. I am that person. I don't know about the others in my subcatagory but i for one need some time to rant and tell others my problems. Thanx for understanding i really don't care if you guys care but its necessary for me. ^.^