So normally when asked what i like to read i respond accordingly, "If its romantic, epic, and the occasional super/preternatural aspect to it and the text doesn't look like it was written for a fifth grade comprehension, then i more than likely love it."
When selecting a book of literary merit for my AP English Literature & Composistion class the pickings get a little slimmer and since i'm super clingy i'm in trouble. lol So from reading around i've discovered Charles Dickens bores me unless its some new christmas special on "A Christmas Carol", Dostoyevsky whats to say, you may be an amazing writer with an interesting backstory and you may appeal to almost everyone who reads your works, I'm not one of those people, F. Scott Fitzgerald........I like you, and the list goes on but in all my searching I have yet to pick up a book by the reknowned Jane Austen, I don't know what it is, i just never gravitated towards her work. So that in mind I never watched the films. Until last night, I watched The Jane Austen Book Club and so with that i went to my school library and picked up "Persuasion" and "Sense and Sensibility".
Turns out i love her so far, we just have to see where this goes........;]
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
15 minutes
So 15 minutes doesn't seem like a long period of time for a lot of people. But its long enough to make a sandwich, write down a couple of notes, make some jokes, etc. For others this amount of time has a much darker significance. Every 15 minutes of everyday a teenager dies in an accident that is the direct result of drugs/alcohol. Today at school we had an assembly and other demonstrations about it. Its sobering to think about really. When you talk to teenagers and they tell you all about the crazy stunts they do, it gives off the idea that we feel invincible. And for the most part we believe it too. So seeing and hearing about something so close to us brings in the reality that, we are vulnerable and and some of us , unfortunately, won't stand the test of time. Just reflecting back on everything just puts a lot of things into perspective for me. I mean i already understood what it means to lose and live a life but still........ idk its a lot to think about. I mean since we're on the topic of death, i remembered my first funeral it was my cousins' he died in a drunk driving accident. So this day is very important to me.
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Star Trek Eve!!!!
TONIGHT is the eve of the most holy events!!!!! Tonight is the preview for the new Star Trek movie coming out tomorrow! And I, ladies and gentlemen, have tickets to go see it tonight at midnight! Insert victory cabbage patch dance here. lol I am sooooo0 excited for this. I mean this will be the first time that i will be able to go see a Star Trek movie in theaters in my lifetime. All the other movies ,of which i own them all, i saw on VHS. So this is a big deal for me. Then Angels & Demons is coming out like next week. Im excited for that too. I got kicked out of class for reading that. It was awesome.
Then on June 4 my very best friend Chris whom i haven't seen in over 2 years is coming back to california!!! In time for my graduation!!!!!!!!! I'm so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!! Insert another victory dance here!
Then on June 4 my very best friend Chris whom i haven't seen in over 2 years is coming back to california!!! In time for my graduation!!!!!!!!! I'm so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!! Insert another victory dance here!
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Oh The Heat! *faints like Keira Knightly even tho i hate her*
UGH!!!!!!! As i said, Oh god this heat is unbearable! Grawr, if i wanted to be sweaty and uncomfortable i would have decide to lose my virginity! This is just not cool at all. No pun intended.... I mean really, I already have to deal with unbearably cold weather in the winter, i don't want to deal with insane heat in f*%$ing SPRING!!!!! Its SPRING for gods sake . Its supposed to be that wierd transitional period from winter to summer. The most heat its supposed to have is like 70 degrees not 95!!! Its supposed to have random showers! Helloo April showers, anyone??? ugh, argh!
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Im tired of High school.......
As aforementioned i am tired of high school. I'm tired of the classes, the drama(most especially the drama), i am tired of homework. Ugh i can't barely get the strength to go to school anymore. I'm SO glad spring break starts next week. Anyway tomorrow morning i am donating blood. *does a dance* Free shirt and free food anyone? Not The point of doing it, but a nice perk. Ummmmm I have redicovered my hate for the human race. Buuuuuuut that's just a given. at least i know who i can trust really. I have nothing to talk about really. Hmm idk im just gonna bullshit. Who names things? like seriously how did we ,as a race, existence whatever, name things? When did we look up and say "i think I'll call that hmmm uhh SKY!, Yeah that what I'll call it"? When did that happen? My goodness thats an interesting cunundrum. And it irritates me when people call my name or something sounding like my name and i turn to answer and its for someone else. That happens to me ALL THE DAMN TIME! It gets annoying after a little while.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Long Weekend.....Sweetness
Omg today may be Thursday but i have no school tomorrow and so now i have a 3 day weekend. *Does happy dance* Now i can catch up on some much needed sleep. I'm so excited for Saturday, that's the opening night of the art show and my painting is in! *does another dance albeit a bit lazier cuz I'm tired* teehee. Oh man this has been a long shortened week, so much has gone on at the same time nothing. Ugh its so draining, AP Eng is killing me. I am suddenly feeling the weight of everything beginning to crash down on me. But that's OK, I can make it through this. Blargh..........that's the sound of me dying a slow death. Just kidding. But seriously, normally i just spout boring crap but now im gonna be silly. So today i reading through SN&R (sacramento news and reveiw) and came upon the personals. I swear it was sooooo hilarious reading them. I'm not knockin people who use them to meet people and form relationships with them, but people come up with the cheesiest crap in the world to attract people! I mean seriously, though can't you come up with anything better than "SWM bottom seeking expericenced top" God, its soo funny. I love it.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Humans
I hate human beings, i can never say this enough. I hate human beings. Its nothing that's new to me, i just feel the need to repeat myself. Nothing super amazing happened today that would cause me to say this, as an observation human beings as a whole (myself included) tend to be terrible things. Sure they(we) have their good moments and good individuals but come on people get with the program learn to be courteous to others. USE YOUR COMMON SENSE!
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Sickiness and forgotten favors (stupid fortune cookie)
Ok so i have been home sick since yesterday at about 10:30am. I left early because, even though it is a cold (stupid cali valley weather--its like monsoon season), i have no tolerence for anyone or anything when i get sick. I literaly cannot stand most human beings during this time. Picture a rabid tigeress pacing a cage. Got it? Now that tigeress is normally calm and relaxed in that cage but when it gets sick it turns into that aforementioned state. Now when im around certain people that i already have little to no tolerance for, the cage door opens and the tigeress attacks. Its not pretty. Not only did I feel bad, i was also very tempermental. So i left and went home.
When i get home it's the usual pattern of taking off my my shoes and jacket and whatnot, change into comfy pants and make myself some soup, normal sick day procedure. So after an hour or two i realize,"I'm gonna need my assignments." So i get the idea to text someone who knows where i live, is a good friend, and can do this for me if ask nice enough. So i text (we'll call him "fortune cookie" for the sake of anonimity or FC for short) FC and ask him for a favor. I figure i never ask him for anything normally he should follow through with this, right? He doesn't text me back. I look at the clock and realize its lunch at school (if im not there i have no idea what time it is sometimes) so i figure,"He probably can't feel/hear his phone." So i text him again this just repeating his name like 8 times. That gets his attention. He texts me back saying,"what?" i proceed to ask him again for a favor. This time he asks what the favor is, and so i fill him in what i need from him and tell him its because i am home sick. He then responds with an aweinspiring, "Ew. What's wrong with you?" Nice. huh? well i tell him its a cold and he says ok. So i wait for the end of the day and for him to bring my assignments.....He never showed. How irritating, i mean if someone asks you to do a favor and you agree to do it, follow through with it! Damn, ugh so i am behind now thanx. im not all the way 100% but back to school tomorrow. Till laters
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Lets Not Swear
Ok Hello again. I am starting off by saying i am a catholic. It seems a tad unusual to start off that way but its important. It is the season in my religion for us to give up something for lent, in order to better understand what Jesus went through and such. I don't pretend to know all the details, but i get the idea. Well me and my twin have decided to give up swearing for the 40 days and 40 nights (did ya see the movie? I did i liked it) anyway, its proving to be a lot more difficult then originally anticipated.
Its like this, my twin and i curse on a daily basis. Sure i don't do it around family members and certain teachers(some of them are pretty cool with it) but when i get around my friends? Well lets say i swear so much i could probably make a sailor proud. Its so annoying and i can't just not do lent because this year i actually want to try to make it through the entire thing and not give up like a pansy. One would think if i can not swear in front of my parents, i could totally do it full time. But i never realized how much swearing has become a part of my vernacular. Twin and i have devloped a punishment system for everytime we do slip, we get a slap on the hand. And its not those girly slaps, we do the whole i-can't-believe-you-said-that-and-now-i-will-leave-my-mark-on-you type of slap. Ugh this will be an interesting next 40 days. Wish me Luck.
Its like this, my twin and i curse on a daily basis. Sure i don't do it around family members and certain teachers(some of them are pretty cool with it) but when i get around my friends? Well lets say i swear so much i could probably make a sailor proud. Its so annoying and i can't just not do lent because this year i actually want to try to make it through the entire thing and not give up like a pansy. One would think if i can not swear in front of my parents, i could totally do it full time. But i never realized how much swearing has become a part of my vernacular. Twin and i have devloped a punishment system for everytime we do slip, we get a slap on the hand. And its not those girly slaps, we do the whole i-can't-believe-you-said-that-and-now-i-will-leave-my-mark-on-you type of slap. Ugh this will be an interesting next 40 days. Wish me Luck.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Blargh
That's all i can really say. I mean today wasn't necessarily a bad one but it wasn't an amazingly good one either. It kinda just was. Um i can say that i am almost done with my painting for art, i am SUPER excited about that. Next weekend will be second Saturday and hopefully mine will be there. My art teacher hasn't completely decided on whose painting will be featured. Although she really seems to enjoy my painting. Considering that mine may not be there i will describe it to you. It has a blue purple background to signify the night sky, of to the right hand side is a woman holding the world in her hands wearing a dress that fades from blue and turns into the ocean. Behind her is a ribbon of sparkling stars and several butterflies flying thru the air. And finally a large moon in the top left hand corner with a serene face. That is what my painting looks like. Everyone who has seen it loves it, so it must be good right? Of course being the artist i guess i can never be happy with my work. After i finish a long project like this one even if it looks amazing i still don't see the beauty in it. I see the mistakes, the missed ideas, how long it took, the trouble behind it,the odd color patterns. The list goes on and on and on. Ugh one would think I'd get tired of all of it. But i do know that the time spent working on a project is sometimes the best time i have ever spent. I love the process sometimes. It helps to unwind. All my problems and my worries have gone and all that's left is my zone. My happy place, my nirvana {side note: Awesome band BTW} and in my happy nirvana, my problems don't mean jack shit. Trying to date, making sure i can write well enough in my AP Eng class so that i don't sound like a complete buffoon, dealing with peoples shit, sometimes trying to handle my family. None of it matters, its the same with reading my books or when a rabid plot bunny bites me; writing my stories. History does that for me too, ancient civilization history not US history that crap bores me. Its like that with my tea too. No one effs with ma tea! lol i am a huge fanatic, its just so yummy and healthy. =) it makes me happy when i have really good tea. God save the person who fucks with my tea. Anyway that is a bit of me out there. lol
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Learn to shuffle, get a guy..
Heehee sooo here is the lastest tidbit in my life: My exboyfriend, who is still a very good friend of mine, well his best friends both have girlfriends now. Now he has no one to chill with, poor guy. Well one of his best friends is actually dating his exgirlfriend. I wonder how he's handling this..... well when we last spoke (like 10 minutes ago) he seemed fine thats good. Ummm lets see, oh i may learn how to shuffle. You know, melbourne shuffle. O wow i sound like such a noob. ugh i hate sounding like a noob. o well such is life. Well i am reading a book called Bitter Moon II: Triane's Son Rising by Amy Lane. One word: AMAZING!!!!! you must read this book. Well obviously you have to read the first one first lol. But she is an amaing writer. Read all of her books! The little goddess series is awesome. Go on her website: www.greenshill.com and read some of her short stories, figure out for yourself if you like her style. I love it. The best part is, she works at my school! Just to warn, her books are a bit on the pricey side but that just because she self publishes. Oh!! another little warning her books have quite a bit of .....love scenes if you catch my drift and a lot, and i mean A LOT of guy on guy love. So if this offends, do not attend lol. I just made that up. ^-^ So anyway that was my day/week so far... let's see how it turns out. til next time ^-^
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
In Memorium......
7 months. 7 months not to this day, not til the 26th. But thats how long its been since my close friend Marvin was living and laughing with me and all our other friends. I have greived, a lot, and i know that pain will never completely fade away. The reason i am talking about it today is that over the past few days he has been mentioned quite a bit. I mean its not like he isn't mentioned is some way shape or form but it has lulled to a point where we can say his name and just sort of smile a sad, wistful smile or just joke to ourselves and wave a fist in the air yelling, "MARVIN YOU ASS! WHY"D YOU LEAVE?!" Even though we know deep down in our very souls that it is a question that will never be truly answered. We can speculate and say own thoughts and feelings behind why he could've died the way he did. Why it was at this moment when it happened. I remember the night he passed away. Its seared into my memories like a painful brand. It always starts with a hospital. It will end that way too i suppose. I remember whispering into his forehead while he lay there comatose, covered in his own blood from the rocks, i said, "you need to get through this. You need to walk on that stage with us and graduate. Please." and then i kissed his head and somewhat shouldered my way through the packed room into our best friends' arms. I held on to Gino for all i was worth. A majority of that night he was my lifeline. I am positive without Gino there hugging me and whispering to my ear reminding me to breath and slow my tears just a little so i wouldn't pass out. Sure Donnie was there (he was my partial on again off again boyfriend) and held me tight and sang Bob Marley in my ears to try and comfort me. Later that same night he called me and told me the 3 words i wanted to hear from him most but he said them at the wrong time. He said to me, "I know i don't say it, but i mean it so much. I love you." i replied with the same but it wasn't the right time to say it. Today i visited that hurt with Gino for a little while and he started to cry so i did what i knew i should and wanted to do. I held him in my arms as tight as i possibly could. It peturbed me that i didn't cry. I don't know maybe i have accepted it.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Is it odd?
Is it odd to look at someone you know you have a crush on and feel nothing when they tell you they are going to date someone else? Is it odd to see an exboyfriend, who you have no feelings other then friendship, and suddenly want to be with them again? Is it odd to look around and even though there is nothing wrong with your vision, you sometimes see things as they would look drawn out? I think it is sometimes. I haven't had a strange day or anything, i am just having peculiar thoughts today. For instance, what are the cheesiest pick up lines ever? and Have they ever worked? Seriously, i had a whole discussion on pick up lines at lunch today! I mean it was fun, it really was. My friends and i were telling some to each other. Then my exboyfriend said one that was so utterly cheesey, it was adorable and made me want to date him all over again. Then i stopped that line of thought and said to myself mentally,'Wait a minute! He dumped you, remember? ........TWICE!' That ended that. lol But continuing with the mindless drabble, I realized today that i am going to be reminded of my single status on Valentines day. It doesn't completely bother me.............ok it does. Oh and on that same day i will attending a wedding. Talk about rubbing relationship status in the face, right? Oh well, such is life i'll get used to it. Earlier i was thinking to myself, 'man, wouldn't it be wonderful if that great guy you're friends with in South little Rock, Arkansas would send you a Valentine this year like you sent him cookies last year?' Then i realized, 'Oh yeah. We aren't speaking at the moment.' But one thing i think the United States should make a holiday here is White Day. Whit Day is celebrated in Japan. That is the day all the guys who got chocolates or anything else on Valentines Day, has to give something back to girl who gave it to them or give a girl they like something. I personally think that is a great idea. ^.^ Oh well. I just hope i have a good one this year. I just realized i have strayed off topic again....... Thats a really bad habit. Watch one day i am going to be writing about i don't know ice cream and suddenly vear off into my favorite movies. Here i go doing it again.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
You know what really grinds my gears........
I hate, absolutely hate it when people interrupt me. To me thats a huge insult and incredibly rude. I can deal with it if its somehow related to what i was saying, but if its smething completely different, i mean not even in the same galaxy as what i was originally talking about then heads are gonna roll. I'm sure i overreact but its just if I'm gonna show you respect my listening to what you're saying without interrupting and if i do apologize for doing it, shouldn't you show me the same courtesy? Is that not common sense? I certainly think so. Another thing i really just do not like is when I'm on the other side of the apartment and my sister calls me into the living room, i go cuz it might be really important you know?, and all she wants me to do is fricking grab her a water bottle from like 4 feet away from her. i mean seriously are you that pumped up to irritate me and use me as a tool to further your laziness? Ugh, normally i don't complain. In fact i really dislike it when people complain over the littlest of things. I mean seriously who even gives a crap about stupid stuff like that. And i know, I'm being hypocritical. Oh well. what're you gonna do? Complain? lol *makes some sort of growling sound* I also really don't like, and this one is just really really weird, large font in books. It makes me feel like a small child trying to read for the first time. And in doing so the print has to be big. I mean really. It also makes me feel like I'm not getting the whole story. As odd as that sounds, that's just my weird slight ocdness coming out. Grarrrrr. Yes that just happened. I mean i know not everyone is going to automatically know what irritates the hell out of me but still lets keep i mind the manners our parents and peers should've taught everyone and we'll get along fantastically. I'm not saying i have perfect manners. I don't. But i do have better manners than most people do. God forbid anyone is polite anymore. (That was sarcasm BTW) But whatever. I may have anger issues. I'm not sure yet though. So that's something to look out for. What else to say.................... OH! I also really hate it when guys call me babe. I mean really?! That crap is just offensive to me, I am not some strumpet from the 40s. I am not some guys trophy girlfriend and i am nones "Babe". I am not that little pig who herds sheep. Really tho dude, what the hell?! Do they have absolutely no original thought whatsoever? but whatev.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Good day.
So today was a good day. Nothing super interesting happened today. Oh! I just remembered my art may be showed during 2nd Saturday in march! Thank you art teacher! Other than that nothing happened today. It was just a really long day today. Ummm oh a close friend is about to go on a date with total slore despite warnings from practically the entire student body. May god have mercy on his.........you know what i mean. Well lets see what to talk about, hmmm. SO my life is pretty just normal. I have head in the clouds too often probably. I mean i imagine different scenarios that would never ever happen in real life. I mean like I remember walking to school in the morning and playing out a situation in which I played a character from a story i read. All of this is going on in my head ok. Thankfully i don't say random things out loud to make me look crazy. I suppose in this manner i am like JD from Scrubs. Which is one of my favorite shows btw. My favorite characters are JD, Dr.Cox, Janitor, Elliot, Carla and Turk. Great show. So yeah. Umm I love nachos...... i don't know i'm just trying to come up with things to say. well yehhh so thats my day.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Life and Moments
Lets seriously consider moments that have made my day. It wasn't a bad day, in fact it was a really good day. But its the moments that made it great for me. Like the moments in which i sat with my best friend and did cheesy Russian accents and saying "In Soviet Russia" at the beginning of each sentence and creating really weird phrases from it. Or sitting together with another group of close friends and laughing at the absurdity of life and its inner workings. OH! And going to my AP English lit class expecting a very deep discussion on Post-Modernism and Existentialism and furthermore depressing the day and finding instead a half hour of playing Heads Up! 7 Up! and somehow being shown an example of Post-Modernism any way. There is also the moment today of looking across the table and seeing a guy i care for and just for maybe a few seconds locking onto his deep ocean blue eyes and feel perfectly alright. Moments. Life's made up of them, maybe that's all it really is a series of moments one flowing into the next in a continuous current moving right along the stream of time and space. Maybe just maybe if we all stop for a moment and experience a laugh, a smile, a kiss that it will make your day better. Maybe i have no idea what i am talking about and am just making up things to try and explain away a good day. Maybe by rationalizing it, it disappears and just becomes a day. Or maybe a day has no feeling good or bad until we label it and by labeling it, it changes and turns into lost moment. A waste of time. Like the tossing of a coin repeatedly to see when it will tails. Maybe I'm over thinking this whole thing. But one thing i am sure of is lifes continuity and frailty.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Guys are weird and stupid sometimes.
So guys are stupid especially when it comes to girls. Usually its nothing to talk about but this time its different.I was hanging out with one of my best friends when i remembered something she mentioned to me about this guy i like. This guy and i are pretty close, we've been good friends for a couple of years and i developed a crush, you know how these things go, anyway they were talking and since I read like an open book apparently he already knew about the crush. So he says to her "There are a lot of girls that like me," this is actually true, i'm not saying he's a hunk or anything but he's one of those types of guys that have a type of charisma that attracts girls to him like flies to honey anyways back to the story, he then says,"But i don't really like anyone. I mean there are a few people i like but i don't like them in that way. I mean there's this one girl and we're close but i just like her as a friend but i don't want to lead her on because i have a natural tendency to flirt. What should i do?" My friend the wonderful person that she is says," Well maybe you should talk to her and tell her how you feel." Now i'm not disagreeing with that advice i would've told him the same thing. Apparently if you haven't guessed he was talking about me. The whole "she's just a friend to me thing" isn't new to me. It happens all the time. Sucks, huh? But moving on, she tells me this and i'm like ok great another one bites the dust. Though i was fine with it because i figured something like this was gonna happen. so i decide ok i'm just gonna keep doing my own thing and not even acknowledge the heartbreak. So for 2 weeks since that convo i have been waiting for him to come up to me and start saying something about it...........Instead all i get is a bit of the cold shoulder. I guess thats his way of not giving me mixed signals but i don't know. It's more trouble that it should be. I mean why doesn't he get it over and done with right? Gosh i mean its a bit of a jerk move. Even though i do understand the intent of it but couldn't he find a better way????!
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Epic Day of Epicness lol
Okay so big day today. Obama named president today, *makes happy noise*. Um nothing to be immensely down about, which is a very good thing. I know on here i seem like a super depressed ninny, but I'm not normally. Normally I'm the one everyone goes to if they need advice or something. I am a walking, talking Dear Abby column. But that's to be expected it's in my nature. So on more social news important in my life that i feel the need to talk about: Today I was supposed to actually deliver an envelope to one of my closest friends. Now normally this kind of thing wouldn't be of note, but this was different in the fact that its contents contains remnants of a time in his life when he was very much in love with an ex girl of his. In it contained his favorite pictures with the girl and 3 paper letter he wrote to her-but it was written back to front so in actuality it was like 6 pages long. There were some extenuating circumstances with the girl and to make a long story short another girl entered the picture and everything was torn apart he didn't get back with either and he was left brokenhearted. Of course me being the great friend i am stuck with him through it all. Even though the entire time i, deep in the recesses my heart i pined away for him (no the other girl was not me). But then time passed and he found a few girls to "play" with. I was one of though i did not "play" that much with him, just a few discreet kisses that would be perfectly acceptable in europe as a friend thing so thats my story and im sticking to it. After a while he found his new girlfriend a lovely florida girl. I use the term loosely. I suppose thats the best friend /unrequited crush in me coming out.
Well now that they are together he is happy and thats what counts right? yes, yes it does. Now i just need to make that delivery and cross my fingers that it doesn't bring up any painful memories.
How did I go from Obama to past drama is beyond me. Lol i suppose its what some people would call the ramblings of a teenager or something i don't know. I guess considering i started talking about the significance of the day that i should pick the thread up and run with it again, huh? Anyways big day today. We, as a country, have moved past some although not all idiot ideals and have embraced this wonderful man as our new commander in chief. His words moved me when i heard him speak today after being sworn in. As he looked out across the National Mall at the massive sea of people waiting to hear him, as i watched on Tv today i could only think one thing: Everything will get better. I have a great hope that it will. It all became a bit surreal and did not finally hit me until about 4:30 in the afternoon today. I was watching the news and just listening abbout the Veterens Ball that they were throwing and i feel silly saying this but all i could was that 'Please let this man take care of our military' Because i flashed to my best friends who are now inlisted in the United States Marine Corps. I swear i almost cried.
Friday, January 16, 2009
i feel a little blue........
Ok so title pretty much says it all. I'm a little sad today, i mean my day was great up til like 12:30pm. All of a sudden I'm surrounded by 20 billion couples and i am a pair of one. It was a slap to the face revealing how much i am like Carrie from sex in the city........w/o the sex and a Mr.Big and w/o the big city. I was the sad version still handing out advice, pretty good advice if i do say so, but no enjoyment and no one to really tell my feelings to w/o them simplifying them and then begin to tell me about all their problems and no happy news. After a rousing discussion in English about completely losing faith in any and all systems of beliefs and questioning the very nature of our existence upon this earth i walked home and proceeded to nearly cry. I am now out an about in the most wonderful tea shop in downtown midtown here in lovely Sacramento trying to cheer myself up. And so i felt the need to tell you all about it, well whoever reads these about it.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
The beginings of a Social Butterfly Rant.
Ok soooo definately not a first time blogger but first time on here so bear with me. Well we all know how high school goes, there are teachers we like, teachers we don't like, friends we hang out with because you genuinely like hanging out with them, there are the people you tolerate in class because you know that one day they are going to snap and become the crazy serial killer you know is lurking somewhere beneath, there are the superficial catty girls/guys (you all know they exist) and there are the vain, egotistical, dim-witted jocks who try to get away with everything, oh! let us not forget the ap students, those wonderful students who will be doctors or lawyers, definately politicians and shrinks. But they are definately people one can have an intelligent convo with and not feel like you're talking to a 3yr old. There are the drama dorks(who i love with all m'heart) Also those wonderful punk kids and the occasional goth, the quaker, the baker and the candlestick maker........Just kidding lol. There is the anime club/group of fanatics with whom i do feel for and count myself as one of them (although on my own time) that sadly follow the stereotype of that of almost completely low level on the status chain. And although i hate to admit there is one, i can't help but somewhat stick to the unspoken natural order that is the wild kingdom of high school. We (as teenagers) know that high school on a daily basis is not as depicted in classic Grease nor is the annoyingly over the top ridiculous sing a long that is the sensation High School Musical . It is a building with different types of people that so happen to inhabit inside it for aprox. 4 yrs. I could go on with a list of clicks and stereotypes for a month and probably still have at least another hundred more that seemingly pop up out of nowhere, but i won't. I know, I know all of you are saying "THANK THE HEAVENS! She's done." I guess the whole rationale for pointing out this well known accepted fact among most of "young adults" even those who still act like 2 and 5 year old respectfully, is to talk about the feelings ssof the "social butterfly". The girl or guy who knows and gets along generally well with everyone in a vast majority of the enitire school population. Including all those listed above and a couple more like the cholos and the gangsters and the emo kids and the stupid potheads who--at one point or another-- where good clearheaded friends from elementry school. The list goes on and on and on. I am that person. I don't know about the others in my subcatagory but i for one need some time to rant and tell others my problems. Thanx for understanding i really don't care if you guys care but its necessary for me. ^.^
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